today Helen and i were absolutely pushed to the limits
i didn't crack under the pressure
Helen, was pretty much cracking
which i can totally understand, coz she's the owner of the pharmacy
3.30 and i finally get a bit of time for lunch
i run over to Wendy's to get a hotdog and a milkshake
i come back in..
and the pharmacy is FULL again
and then i'm back in the dispensary dispensing, counselling patients, answering phone calls


and then i cracked


we are wayyy too understaffed


Helen appreciates my effort, i can tell
just the way she smiles at me and how she calms down when i take the initiative to help even though i'm not clocked on
i know i don't have to do it,
like all the other staff,
i can just sit there and insist that its my break
and go "why are you on? ur on your break!? just don't bother!"
but we're talking healthcare here
people need their medication
people need their advice
pharmacists have a duty of care
and its way more significant than a hot dog going cold or a milkshake melting

we have a responsibility
and shop staff just don't get that


i'm so exhausted now i feel like hiding under my sheets and sobbing
the thought of going in to work tmrw morn is just nauseating
but the words every coach drummed into my head since i was 8 years old still rings till today:

NO PAIN, NO GAIN.

come on shaleen.
This is the worst job scenario,
but it's the best training you'll ever get.
Be grateful.
God has His reasons :)


haa
i feel better now
just remembering that my Jesus is watching and smiling at me from heaven :)