O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!

I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave,you are there.
If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!
I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!

O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!
Get out of my life, you murderers!
They blaspheme you;
your enemies misuse your name.
O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you?
Yes, I hate them with total hatred,
for your enemies are my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

how amazing is that?

whether you're a believer or not,

there is a God who knows your every detail of your existance!

how amazing!

*****

Sweet Jesus,
what is this wall of pain i have built
that hinders me from feeling your presence like i used to.
what have i done?
where have i strayed?
I wanna wake up in the morn and the first thing i see is Your sweet face.
and the first thing i feel is your everlasting love.
being me to that place of revelation once more.
some chains need to be broken.


***


why all the dramas?
homesick?
work politics?
non-ideal living environment?
other responsibilities?

i believe it all bores down to one word:

hurt

ouch

this weekend i really wanna spend time to myself
and just to get some rest.

staying in bed for the day sounds... hm..:)

come on wound, heal up now
you can't keep holding me back like this

***

and so josh leaves adelaide in 2 weeks
i still recall us all in one room
yu sheng, me, josh, lucas, ted
then yu sheng left
then it was me, josh, lucas and ted
then lucas left
then i left
and now josh leaves..

:(

everyone leaves
i wish i had a stable human who would alwz be there with me through every season,
every change,
every phase,
every victory,
every fall,
news flash shaleen,
that will never happen

coz we're only human

***

i love pastor mark's message on fb this week

Proverbs 25v9,10"When arguing with your neighbour dont betray another persons secret. Others may accuse you of gossip and you will never regain your good reputation"

In the heat of an arguement its so easy to blurt out something you will later regret. You want to be proved right and it's tempting to let out that little piece of information that you know is a secret but it makes you right. Don't do it, it will damage relationships and your reputation. A wise person has a reputation for being able to keep confidences. Its a good reputation to have because people will come to you at their times of vunerability if they know they can trust you, and you get chance to point them to Christ.
Have a blessed week
Love Ps mark and Nina

i have found myself in that situation so so so so so so so so many times
i'm glad i have the word of God to teach me,
and to help me guard my heart and my tongue.
how great is the word of God?
soooo good :D

****

also look what my daddy's colleagues sent around thru email:

Dear Uncle,

Wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

This guy never sleeps. Works incessantly and tirelessly. Good at heart. Loves to help people. At his age, he should be enjoying life outside work but no, he tells me “He loves working at Nu Skin and still has the passion to take things to another level”. He reminds me of Sir Alex Ferguson (Manchester United team manager), a winner many times over and someone who just don’t know when to stop. My hats off to you Jaya! Have a wonderful birthday!

Hardworking, energetic, helpful and great in coming up with an idea to solve a problem. ~ Warehouse team


awwwwwhhhhhhhh

i knew i wasn't exaggerating when i said my daddy is a superman :D

i soooo wanna go home and give him huge kiss on his pokey unshaven cheeks!

and hm maybe i do look a little bit like daddy
:D
yay!