today i joined a few other women at a gathering
and there was me, aged 22,
another lady with a teenage daughter,
and a grandmother,
a lady with two sons around my age who just recently remarried,
and a lady who had just given birth to a beautiful baby boy.

and just to hear everyone share,
i was so amazed at the things they had to say,
about just being a woman,
being a mother,
a wife,
a sister,
a daughter,
i was so blown away.
i learnt so much tonight.
so much wisdom they had.
sometimes we think we're smart just because we did uni.
think twice people before we criticize older people, whether or not they did uni or not.
they usually know a lot more than u learnt at uni.
so hush, listen, and learn.

also tonight, for the first time i saw and felt the joy of being a mother just by looking at someone.
watching the lady tear spontaneously, just because it was her first time away from her new little baby,
and hear her say "oh stop talking about him! i just miss him" and wipe her tears thru her giggles.
i was lost for words.
would i feel that way too someday?
does it get that overwhelming?
do you feel that attached to that "person" u conceived?
but why would u tear?
u know you'll be home with your baby in 2 hours.
i still can't comprehend.
would a daddy feel such overwhelming joy as a mummy would?
why would he?
but he didn't go thru the same things a mum would through a pregnancy?
hm.
i don't understand,
but i can't help feel the warmth in my heart just thinking of how it might feel.
so many questions.
life will answer it when the time comes :)

wow
such an honour to be a lady to have the ability to bear a child
so many times we take that for granted that we can bear miracles :)
i'm absolutely mesmerized

and men, you're darlings in your own ways too :)