i feel.. a lil lonely..

packing is going great.
but i still have a feeling that i'm missing something..

i feel like i'm not growing.
everything just feels stagnant now.
dry.
distant.
i should seek more,
because i know when i seek with all my heart,
i WILL find.

today i began to talk myself into worrying again.
if there is one thing i'd like to overcome for now,
it has to be accepting and understanding that it is not unusual to not be worried when something is not right.
sometimes i deliberately make myself worry because it just does not make sense if i don't feel worried despite the severity of the situation i am in.
some people say that if you're not worried about anything, its just because you just have this "tadak apa" attitude,
so basically if nothing matters, there's nothing to worry about!

but i believe worrying is not the way to go because God has already won the victory for us.
Our future is secure and there are so many promises in our future which we are yet to see and grasp.

so i don't have a job yet.
my exams are in two weeks.
i have relationships which are on the rocks.
i don't know what or where i will be in the next couple of months.

don't i have every reason to worry?

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” Phillipans 4: 6-7

no i don't.
note to self : so stop talking yourself into worrying when you KNOW you don't have to!

i know that there are promises and blessings in my future with my name already carved on it.
Blessings beyond my greatest dreams and imaginations.
i just need to reach out, and grab.
Keep going Shaleen.
You're getting to your promise land.