shaleeni is not feeling her healthy chirpy self today

brb tmrw

joke of the day

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Dear Shaleeni

If you could give me a contact phone number and let me know whether you are a Tenor or Bass, I will get the representative from that section to ring you and they will fill you in on our choir.



Sue Smith
Secretary
Adelaide Harmony Choir

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laugh ppl, laugh!!
i found it funnyy!!!!

some faces are just not meant to be in photos

SOB

watch this if ur in a bad bad bad mood
coz this will sooooo make ur day

the line between making someone laugh with a joke, and hurting them can be dangerously thin.

my bestest bestest bestest fwen!!!

people look at us squabbling with each other and they go:

"eh you two best friends ar?"

LOL!!!!
hahaha

what friend!!
ENEMY!!!
GAH!!

*giggles*

well, we may not be the bestest of friends who grew up together,
and had crushes on the same boys,
or failed our exams together,
and fall into drains and hurt ourselves and cry together

but yea,
i guess we're preeeeettttyyy good friends aye..

:)

love u woman.
i mean brat.
or monster.
gah!

*hugs*

my favourite song
my favourite dance
stunningly gorgeous white dresses
not once, but twice!!

i'm thrilled!! :D
*heart*

watch and prepare to be in awe!!

here's this year's australian version:


and this year's american version:



how beautiful was that?
: D

i killed carrie my corriander

T.T

time to look for a new pet to love and care for

National Pharmacies just called and they're gonna arrange an interview for me!!!
i'm sooooooo excitedd!!!

well, yea you can argue that thy probably called every single person who put in an application..

but I'M STILL SO EXCITED!!!!

i can't leave my backside in one spot for more than a minute!!!

*hops around*

targets for the day

special thanks goes out to daddy for waking me 5 minutes before my alarm rang
how potong stim is that
and he's like "why everytime i call u, u still sleeping one!!!"
brrrr
coz everytime u call daddy dear, i had a late night from trying to finish up my work ler..

anyway..
today's another spring clean session
yes, shaleeni the clean freak

so here's my to do list for the day:

clean kitchen!
put away dishes!
vacuum floor!
wash toilets!
wash bathroom!
fold clothes!
sweep the back yard and the front porch!
organize the load of magazines!
lunch date with ernest!
training! SOB.
and most importantly...study!!!!

can i do it??
well i'll try.

chill?

friends tell me that i'm someone who is very patient,
especially when it comes to dealing with people.

so am i losing it,
or am i just very very very tired today?

coz i don't feel very patient at the moment.

dear koko wei jin,
(yes i stole the pic from ur blog)

every day without fail i wonder how you're doing.
it must be really hard not to be able to do stuff on your own.
if i found it hard to do stuff with a few scratches around my body,
i can imagine how much harder it is for you right now.
i wish i could do something to help,
but there's really nothing much i can do.
i'm cheering you on here in adelaide,
and keeping you in my prayers,
i miss u very much,
and i hope everything continues to go well.

adelaide feels odd without a koko wei jin around.
*hugs*

here's the ridiculous target i set for the day
with a recovering ankle and a terrible fitness level:
i wanted to finish 10km
die die also must finish.
sure can one..
last time can marrr....

i ended up running 5km only
with a timing of 35mins.

that's pretty bad huh.
i used to do a 5km in 24 mins.

well i need to forget what i USED to be able to do..
and work on what i CAN do now.
and improve on that.

most importantly, i've gotta quit being lazy.
what happened to the shaleeni determination?
i could hv finished the 10k if i wanted to, i think.
i wasn't exactly tired..
i just, well, got bored..
and i quit at 5.

but well at least it's an improvement from yest..
i only managed 3.5km before my ankle started to hurt.

push harder tmrw shaleen.
not just physically.
MENTALLY.

training with the coach tmrw
OH NOOOOOO

prepare to ACHE

and i currently weigh 69.6kg.
awesome.
4 more kilos to my ideal body weight.

so much for losing 3 kilos during my trip back to malaysia

i cannot stop eating now that i'm back in adelaide!!!!
waaa!!!!
who to blame??
winter??
assignments??
training??
a combination of all three??

the moment i get home, all i can think of is "what to eat next"

SOB
how unhealthy.

must get back to healthy eating ASAP

should i go for the rural pre-reg trainings that are being offered at the moment....??


I DON'T KNOW

i need to pray. like seriously pray.

my latest treat

been wanting to read get this book for a while now

wanted to read wild at heart, which is the guy's equivalent as well.

and this is what i got today!!


both in one volume!!!
i am ABSOLUTELY thrilled.

:D

i actually REALLLLYYY like this 1 minute Australian Idol teaser!!!

and hohoho i've already found myself a favourite for now

: D

reminder

When the enemy comes in like a flood, the spirit of the Lord shall raise up a standard against it.

When the enemy comes in like a flood, the spirit of the Lord shall raise up a standard against it.

When the enemy comes in like a flood, the spirit of the Lord shall raise up a standard against it.

When the enemy comes in like a flood, the spirit of the Lord shall raise up a standard against it.

When the enemy comes in like a flood, the spirit of the Lord shall raise up a standard against it.

Lord, please remind me and give me my personal conviction about how much i'm worth.
Coz the lies of the enemy are starting to creep in.

run, shaleeni!!! run!!!

here's a riddle:
what do you call a person,
who hates running,
like HATES running,
and YET she signs up for a 12 km run....???


a. she was sleep deprived
b. she was pms-ing, hence compulsive decisions
c. someone called her fat.
d. she's just NUTS!!

or maybe she's desperate to drag her fitness level out of the "pathetic" category.

so its on.
4 training sessions a week.
2 with a trainer.
2 on your own.
10 weeks of increasing intensity.

just bcoz you're on your own doesn't me you can slack off!!
(but ahem, i'll try not to..)


TRAININGS ARE HELL!!!!
it is TOTALLY NOT FUNNY.

and gosh i'm actually running in shorts in winter!!
even in the rain!
i've turned into one of those crazy winter running australians!!


oh well i've always loved trainings.
altho they beat me up so bad physically.
well, as the saying goes..
can't live with it, can't live without it!!

: D

OMG I HAVE A COACH AGAIN!!!
i'm LOVING it!!

SMJK Catholic's band has now evolved into a SYMPHONY BAND

*jaw drops*

wow

oh i miss my clarinet

can i play it still with my brand new teeth?
hm

fly back into my arms again

marabelle heng is probably waiting to board her beloved Singapore Airline plane now

good to know that she'll be walking on the same gound as i will be the moment i
jump off my bed tmrw


yay!!!
life will feel a lil more "normal" tmrw

:)

lesson for the day

God's message to me:

stop scratching your scabs.
it won't heal if you keep picking on it.
and even when it's healing beautifully,
don't go rip it open and make it bleed again.


i always thought i'm progressing fabulously,
but now i realise that the description above
has indeed been the story of my life over the
past 3 and a half years.

i want to stop scratching my wounds.


its been long enough playing these emotional games
which have created endless oscillations between bleeds and scabs.
sometimes things get so bad they turn septic.

its time to let the scabs wither and give the wound a chance to HEAL.


and it starts today.

one step at a time God.
I'm getting to my promise land

excited

i can't wait for the night to be over
why?
coz i'll be with my LIFE GROUP tmrw at a BBQ!!!

how awesome is that!!!!
weeee

and then it'll be sunday!!!
BACK TO CHURCH!!!!
can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!!!!!

can't wait to see all the fun-loving oxygen people at church who've made adelaide so much fun!!
and uncle mike tooo!!!

remembered this vid that was played during the first few oxygen meetings i attended



i love this family God has placed me in

:)

chaotic

going home to malaysia was a real runaway from reality
and here i am now, snapped back to reality
and reality stinks
coz it reminds me that i left adelaide a mess
and now i have to pick up all the pieces i left lying around and patch everything up together

one word to describe my life now

MESSY!!!!
and i can't stand it!!!

my room is still not done
and my house still has some cleaning to be done

i notice how i'm paranoid about the cleanliness of MY OWN HOUSE.
unlike when i'm back home in MUMMY and DADDY's house.
lol
back home i'll just leave my stuff lying everywhere till mummy screams or daddy cleans it.
but here, i'm cleaning all the time!!

i MUST finish all my necessary cleaning by monday as classes start on monday
i'm pretty excited!!!
i've sincerely and honestly missed lectures and exams.
smack me, somebody!!

my pre-registration hunt isn't going too well
i haven't started working on my PR application either
i need to take an IELTS test too
yikes!!
me inggeriss no power la...
sounds like an extra subject of study to me.

i still feel horrid over not having a job.
living of mummy and daddy's hard earned money.

i need to get organized again.
feeling as though i just walked out of a war isn't something very helpful though.
but i can feel the rusty engine getting warm already.
it'll be back rumbling as normal in no time.

is this home?

sitting in the middle of the mall
listening to the enchanting voice of one of the many buskers
watching all the people walking up and down the streets
all dressed up to brave mr winter
the trees have lost most of their leaves
leaving only the few survivors flapping in the cold wind.

i almost forgot how beautiful adelaide is

hmmm
half of me feels really glad to be back here again.
i know, i'm pretty confusing.
but trust me, i'm confused myself.




on a less "emotional" note:
read what a good friend of mine, mr CHOW YONG LING has to say about the petrol price hike.
pretty interesting i must say..
its an EXTREMELY unbiased opinion (giggles at yong ling)
so have a lil read

enjoy

adelaide, SA 5000.

When you're all alone
Far away from home
There's a gift the angels send
When you're alone

Everyday must end
But the night's our friend
Angels always send a star
When you're alone

At night when I'm alone
I lie awake and wonder
Which of them belongs to me
Which one I wonder?

And any star I choose
Watches over me
So I know I'm not alone
When I'm here on my own

Isn't that a wonder?
When you're alone
You're not alone
Not really alone

The stars are all my friends
Till the night time ends
So I know I'm not alone
When I'm here on my own

Isn't that a wonder?
When you're alone
You're not alone
Not really alone....

just woke up from a 6 hour "nap"
to find Megan GONE!!!
well she's left to go to Melbourne and i guess she didn't wanna wake me up
Shel's at work too.
so its just me, all alone at home.

Sure do feel a wee bit lonely at the moment.
but the song above is ringing in my head,
reminding me that i'm not alone at all.
there's a HUGE family of mine here in litte adelaide,
so there's reason to be lonely.
welcome back shaleeni.

: )

here's to lots and lots of hot soup and cold toilet seats!!
its WINTERRRR!!!

what more can i say?

dear world,

i'm sorry i don't club.

i'm sorry i don't drink.

i'm sorry i don't own an ipod.

i'm sorry i weigh 70 kilos.OMG a 70kg girl??

i'm sorry i have feet so big, they dun even have shoes my size at times.

i'm sorry i've got a tummy.yes, i'm ashamed that i'm greedy.

i'm sorry i'm just not "cool" like everyone else is.

.

.

.

no wait.

i'm NOT sorry.

its ok if you can't love me for who i am.

but you can't make me not love me for me.

so quit trying.

it aint working.seriously.

symptoms of exhaustion

when u doze off in the bus, to the extent that you RISK missing your stop..
when u walk and not notice that ur going sideways and RISK getting run over by a motorcycle..


..you KNOW that u need a holiday!!!

but oh well, news flash, the holiday is over for you miss jayamani.

wait, what holiday??

didn't feel like a holiday to me for sure!


A couple of friends and i did a little performance yesterday, and we were pretty unprepared...
if you know me reasonably well, u'll know how PARANOID i am about the
"PERFECTNESS" of any performance i do..
this time,we barely practiced,
and we did not even practice all together before the show.
NOT EVEN ONCE.
with no sound check either.
plus, i didn't know the lyrics to my part too well...
and i had a HORRIBLE feeling in my gut that i was gonna mess up
nervous as hell,all i did was say a little prayer in my heart reminding myself that i'm the daughter of a KING and that i can do all things despite the circumstances.

in my opinion, we ( or shall i say i..) did pretty badly.
not only did the two singers have absolutely no chemistry throughout the whole song,
the musicians fumbled with their chords as well.
plus, i found myself singing a little $#*@)#)ly here and there and
running out of breath due to BAD phrasing..
i felt quite sorry that it didn't turn out to be as phenomenal as we pictured it to be.


but today, i had people coming up to me telling me that i sang really well and that they truly enjoyed it

i'm like HUH??
SERIOUSLY???!??
BUTT WE WERE SOOOOO UNPREPARED!!!

and they go on saying that the spontaneity made the whole thing PERFECT.

*jaw drops*

all i could do was smile and say thank you for the encouragement.

praise God for that.
truly a burdern lifted off my shoulders.

its amazing how when we commit things to God,
although some things don't go as planned, it always turns out good eventually...
it's like God has His amazing yet gentle ways of turning what may seem as our "failures" into something which can still touch people's lives without us even realizing.

if only i could tune myself to listen more to the truth instead of dwell in the lies of the enemy which does nothing but strip the joy and confidence from my life.

Thank You for Your gentle reminder of how perfect i am in your eyes, especially at times when i think so lowly about myself.

and i love it that i remember now :)


*blows kisses to heaven*

3 days to go till i'm on my flight back to adelaide




i totally don't wanna go this time
i HATE stepping out of my comfort zone

:'(

mended.

well i never posted up the pics of my little accident

and people keep asking for it
well, u've got it!!

nah:
at the hospital, all nice and cleaned up.
didn't take any photos at the fall site..
was realllllyyy dirty and messed up i reckon..
my chin that sorta "tore"??


i should sell this pic to some horror film producer.
its sickening. urgh.

still at the hosp

well the clean look din last too long.
by the time i got home, i was all bloody again.dinner!! by megan!!
potato, leek and salmon soup.
couldn't open my mouth so yup, syringe it is..
and i was spilling ALL over the place man.
LOL
hilarious.
aww.. well i know i was laughing all the way
but hey at some point i felt sad also la k.
u can't hold too many buckets of tears in ler..
at some point, it needs to be shed

how sad is this pic really??
T.T
i look like a bashed up wife.
gulps.
*prays for a gentle husband in future*


the 1st night.
want a kiss, anyone?
MUAH!!!

it was so swollen i could barely move my lips or feel anything around that area.
and everything felt so tight.

i was so scared my lip would burst and the blood clot would got squirting everywhere.
haha
but DUHH it didn't.


night 2. still swollen in the mouth.
but heaps better than the day before.


this was the MOST PAINFUL, honestly.
especially when i had to scrub it with the medisponge.
URGH!
still recall how i was trembling all the way trying to bear the pain why ivy scrubbed it for me.
*shrugs at thought*

plus, the impact on this hand is still causing me pain till now.
sob. my wrist hurts. and i can't even cut an onion without feeling pain.
my few day old stitches which got infected:(


this was taken more than a week later.. quite cool le..


the 11th day after my fall
the day before i flew..
yes i flew with all those things on my face.and NO TEETH.
and without a shower for 11 days. nyeheheheheheh.
no choice la k.

ok so it wasn't thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttt bad riggghhhttt..
TOLDYA!!!
you all so kanchiong for wuttttttt

:p

well, 2 months down the road, and after 6 dental visits.. here's what we get:
my beautiful stitches on my chin.

the scar on my right arm is quite eeuu
a huge bulge. should have used solosite. darn.
coz when u use solosite.. this is what u get. look at the pic below:

wow. beautifully healed. *salutes solosite*

and the moment you've been waiting for.....*drum roll*
THE FACE!!
yes, loads of patience, diligent skincare and even more prayer produces AMAZING results.
it doesn't even look like i fell off anything. LOL.
of course, unless u see from near la...


so its a happy ending after all

boy i look really tired in the pic huh?
even the happy smile can't hide the tiredness in my eyes.
that's what 3ringgit/hour jobs do to u.
i'm not too happy with the new teeth.. the left bunny teeth looks a bit senget..
but well, its better than not having teeth eh
the dental procedures were quite disgusting and uncomfortable most of the time
but from jia ching's advice to just say a small prayer before the painful injections,
i realised that i could sit still and endure the pain much better :)

there are still scars on my face from the fall..
on my nose, under my nose, my cheek, my chin and also on my lipline.
people say its not obvious, but let me tell u why its not obvious:
COZ it blends so well with my acne
sighs
here's to an even more intensive and diligent regiment of skincare
well, i've been good and been disciplined about getting my skin right before i fell..
so i'm sure with time, it'll all be nice and clear again.

lastly, here's a huge shout out to ALL my friends who
helped me so much throughout this little drama,
especially:

1. shelley chee+ben+ivy :
for rushing to the scene and brought me around to get my medical and
dental treatments on the day itself

2. Megan Vu:
for yelling at me, forcing me to eat, making all my meals, letting me sleep in her room, and just being mummy to me while i was "bedridden"

3. Hung Nguyen:
For getting me ALL my pharmaceutical and first aid supplies,
including his father's panadeine forte.

4. Handy Goh No:
for making me laugh my brains out and ripped my scab, leaving me an EXTRA scar

5. Marabelle Heng:
for constantly coming over to help me with household chores and feed me clean me
and dress me (and undress) lol

6. Jia ching and Ernestine:
for texting me almost everynight to check on my progress

7. Koko Wei Jin:
for being there when i fell. LOL.

8. Sarah, Yat Tuang & PW:
for coming over to help me wash hair/dishes/laundry

9. Su Ling and Amna:
for helping me change my bandages

10. Church leaders, lifegroup and pastors:
for all the visits, cards, calls, food, prayers and love

11. Classmates:
for the yummy brunch party before i left
i miss the pancakes, serious!!

12. Juniors:
for dinner and company

13.Friends back home in malaysia:
for calling and texting to make sure i'm doing ok

MOST IMPORTANTLY:
my family, for standing by me, providing me emotional and
financial support all the way without fail.
i love you.