lesson for the day

God's message to me:

stop scratching your scabs.
it won't heal if you keep picking on it.
and even when it's healing beautifully,
don't go rip it open and make it bleed again.


i always thought i'm progressing fabulously,
but now i realise that the description above
has indeed been the story of my life over the
past 3 and a half years.

i want to stop scratching my wounds.


its been long enough playing these emotional games
which have created endless oscillations between bleeds and scabs.
sometimes things get so bad they turn septic.

its time to let the scabs wither and give the wound a chance to HEAL.


and it starts today.

one step at a time God.
I'm getting to my promise land