no raya for me

i'm dreading going down to trott park tmrw for the placement.
3 3 hours sessions at the pharmacy,
and stand a 1 in 10 chance to get the spot.
have i mentioned that traveling to the pharmacy itself takes me 3 hours to and fro?
plus its a retail pharmacy.
i know nuts about retail pharmacy.
i don't even know how to use the dispensing system!
ask me my drugs, i lagi dunno!

i'm not even done with my prep for tmrw's class.
and its 11.24 pm already.
hm.

i really should stop grumbling.
even if its just a 1 in 10,
i might just be the "1" if i stop being sulky about this whole placement assessment thingy
and just give the next three days my best shot.

let's hope i dun come back crying.
that always happens on first days.
pharmacy is just so......... onion-like?

oh well.
come on shaleen.
you're not THHHAAAAATTT bad.

*smile*

back to studying.

oh btw, Happy Valley was BEAUTIFUL.
and the pharmacy owner was lovely as well.
Let's see how that goes.
He says he'll probably decide in two weeks time.
Kangaroo Island..... no news so far.
Should i bug her and ask her if i made it through?
naaaaaaahhh.... better not.
be professional shaleeni,
you're 6 weeks away from being one.

alright.
books.

*blows spring kisses*
*muah*

trials

i'll try a lil more.


************

Happy Valley interview.
Here i come.

the song on my heart tioday:

VERSE 1
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

VERSE 2
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

CHORUS
I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

VERSE 3
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

BRIDGE

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

verse 4
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow.

Stretched.

Emotionally.
Physically.
Mentally.
Spiritually.
Financially.

Pressing on.

Psalm 119:116 "Lord sustain me as you promised that I
may live! Do not let my hope be crushed."

i'm so nervous.

what will the outcome be.

i gotta start getting interested in doing my internship with any other pharmacy.

i'm not stupid

don't leave me little hints here and there about the stuff you're hiding from me

i'll figure them out sooner than you think i would

like duhh. really. duhh.

gee.

am i disappointed?

you bet.

i thoroughly enjoyed the interview with Lindley this morning from the Kangaroo Island Pharmacy
will i get the job?

i don't know.

i leave it in God's hands.

i know i've given it my all.

how true is this picture.
hm.
some people are so creative in the way the put a message across.

do you know the pic is simply saying?

"You know somebody, and they cry for you. They stay awake at night and dream of you. I bet you never know they do, but somebody's crying for you"

cubit paha kanan, paha kiri terasa juga.

You're not alone boy, i'll cry with you.
we'll always be supporting you, you know that.
*hugs*

to a beautiful woman

If i could think of someone i've taken for granted the most all this while,
it has to be you.

All the while we've been friends,
all i ever thought of was me.
Yet you were always there.

When people doubted me,
you believed in me.

While everyone was bitter with my success,
you were proud of me.

When people said untrue things behind my back,
you always stood up with the truth for me.

While everyone made fun of me coz i was bigger than the boys,
you brought me out to buy pretty clothes i could fit in.

While nobody appreciated my efforts or understood my sacrifices,
You always reminded me that i was your inspiration.

While i left you sitting next to an empty chair most of the days at school,
you always missed me.
yet you cheered me on to go after my dreams.

While everyone was excited that i was going to australia,
you were afraid i'd never come home.

Yet thru the many years of growing up together since primacy school,
i never took us seriously.
I was always so busy chasing my dreams,
chasing my gold medals,
chasing top student awards,
chasing fame,
chasing respect,
which i was proud of then,
but mean nothing now.

But all in all, i'm glad we're still going strong.
And i made a secret commitment to you a couple of years ago,
that i'd stop taking you for granted,
and be the friend you deserve to have.

You've grown into such a beatiful woman,
strong and steadfast,
and through everything that's going on now..
no matter how hard it gets,
you know that you have me with you,
constantly thinking about you,
and loving you more and more each day.

You're my best friend,
You're my sister,
You're family.

and i love you.

i'd sing this to you if i was there with you today,
but since i'm not,
this song is for you:

You're my peace of mind
In this crazy world
You're everything I tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You're my Mona Lisa
You're my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fill of tears
Our share of sighs
My only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing years will show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

When there are lines upon my face
From a lifetime of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last while
We can laugh about
How time really flies
We won't say goodbye
'Cause true love never dies
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing years will show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes


Happy 22nd Erinn Wan Zhu-Jinn.
i miss you very much.

ok so my sleep at 12 midnight plan has not been kept to

lets try again today

i really want to rectify this

12 am shaleeni!!!
12 am!!

is it that fun to study??
GO TO SLEEP!
WAKE UP EARLY TO STUDY IF YOU HAVE TO!


TONIGHT.
12 am.
shall.
will.
must.

SEND ME TO BED IF YOU SEE ME ONLINE AFTER 12..
even if i'm not there.. gimme a yell..
coz i'd most probably be appearing offline to make sure noone knows i'm still awake

:P

PP time!
i can do it!




************


OMG OMG OMG!!
an email from Trott Park Pharmacy!!!
LOOK!!

Hi Shaleeni,

Are you able to come in for a few hours this week & next week, on a placement style assessment.

Let me know what hours suit you & your university schedule.

Thanks

Aram

**************

ok i know i didn't get the job yet...

but at least now i've moved from a 1 in 20 chance to a 1 in 10 chance to get it

i'm so nervous!

i've never done a single retail placement in australia!

i don't know how things are done!!

nvm, show that i can learn and pick things up decently well.

and just try my best

i'm so excited!! ;)

**********

i'm thinking of shutting down the cerulean_charm2 email add

i can hear sher mayne going "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"

well, that email add was the one thing that kept our friendship strong from the day she left to NZ at the age of 16.

all the childish emails over our kiasuness in sports and studies,

all the success stories and joys when we triumphed in our own worlds

all the high school "problems" and "heartaches"

all the hidden feelings for the boys we fell in love with

all the secrets we told noone else

everything was done through that email add,

until Shaleeni got smart enough to use MSN...

heheh

that inbox is pretty dormant now though..

except for a couple of secrets we're desperate to talk about which is too difficult to explain through msn..

should i shut it down

hm

**********

lastly, lil matthew of mine is having his exams..

anyone else having exams,

i wish u all the best ;)

ps: how do you know whether you're just loving, or if you're actually in love?

yes, random.

one less voice

megan went back to melbourne today
she'll be away for 5 days
just paid my bills and my rent
and i'm BROKE
trust australia to suck u dry when it comes to electrical bills and services
sighs

Kangaroo Island's interview is this Saturday
then i've got another interview at happy valley on monday
that's gonna be another 1.5hr bus ride down south
coz its actually further down south than trott park pharmacy which i went to last week


maybe i should postpone the cycling trip with sean and wen xian
we're meant to go on Sunday in the afternoon
but with the interview on monday,
maybe i should stay away from the bike a little more..
just in case i.fall.off.the.bike.again.


i'm still gonna go cycling soon
i can't be scared of the bike forever
its just a bike!

soon.
very soon.

*******
introducing.. my latest friend:

lets hope i actually have the time to read it
hehe

my housemates love me

thank you megan vu and shelley chee
and hung nguyen and handy goh no ( the respective boyfriends)

i feel so loved

:)

week 2 of the final sem

sleeping beauty?

I need to quit the current habit of working till 3 am,
waking up at exactly 6.41 am,
and having a 3 hr evening nap btw 2-5pm.
It's ridiculous!

12 midnight bedtime from today onwards Shaleeni.
and NO EVENING NAP.
and ur next day starts as 7.
Its time to get back to the real world.


The weekend is gonna be a really long one
with the big hunt and my 1st aid rego course running over Saturday and Sunday.

on a happy note,
Andrew's got his passport.
Be jealous everyone, coz he's coming ALL the way here to visit ME.
ME ME ME!
or maybe that's just what i think.
hm.
nvm la, i'm happy with that self declared conclusion.
let me live in my happy world.
come join me if you want.
Its really good on this side of the world:)
lalala..

*skips of happily*

today i sneezed 20000 times
spring, oh spring

thank God i have like endless supply of antihistamines.

the big hunt is this Saturday.
I haven't been able to contribute much in the earlier stages due to my placement..
but now on the final league,
i'm trying to contribute as much as i can to help reduce the burden of the team.
just one more day of work,
and i know Saturday is gonna be a blast!!

The 1st prize is a $1000 cash voucher from STA Travel.
How EXCITING is that!!!
i wish i could join it too,
i'd probably win since i know all the clues.
:P

nonsense la you Shaleeni.
Back to work.

*blows kisses*

if Love bears all things, believes, hopes and endures all things,

then maybe i just don't know how to love.

374 Carrington Street, adelaide SA 5000

to

Trott Park Pharmacy
20, Heysen drive, Trott park SA 5158


1. 174 bus gets me from Hutt Street (3.52pm) to King William Street (4.00pm)
2. T721 bus on King William ( 4.16pm) to Old Reynella Interchange stop 45 (4.55pm)
3. 734S bus at the Old Reynella Interchange (5.14pm) to stop 51 on adam's street ( 5.29)


oh adelaide busses, please don't let me down.
i cannot afford to miss a single bus.
neither can the busses afford to be late.

proverbs 4:23

hottie and rob's bday

am i prepared for tmrw?
no.
i need to iron my clothes, that's why.
thank you for all the wishes for my interviews.
the msgs, the texts.
i never knew so many ppl would be genuinely concerned about my needs.
thank you everyone.
i feel really encouraged :)




today i checked out the sausages for the sausage sizzle for the big hunt on Saturday
Last week Don told me that he had a dream that sausages were 3something bucks at coles.
and walah, this week sausages at coles are 3.49 a kilo!]
which is 1.25 bucks cheaper than the usual price.
Hallelujah indeed!
one burden down on my part.





i love my dear friend matthew lee so so so so much.
coz i know he loves me just as much.





dan's bday party was so much fun!
the food was excellent and the company was perfect.






my room has a fresh bunch of gorgeous yellow and white daffodils.
each time i set my eyes on it, i can't help but smile.






i almost fell off my bed while climbing down the steps.
this is what happens when u take an evening nap when you usually don't.
i'm glad i'm not hurt.





my jeans are falling off my hips..
am i actually losing weight?
but the weighing scale doesn't say so.





i spoke to aaron today 5 days after he left Malaysia.
He's doing so well on his own, i can't help but feel extremely proud of him.




Rob turns 18 today too.
i've never had a chance to celebrate his bday with him.
i miss him :(






love is the only pain we humans don't try to avoid.
true?
hm






Today i asked God why i don't seem to be getting anything i want.
and God said "wait. be patient, and i will put dreams on your heart far greater than your little fantasies."
i am excited!
but i need to be PATIENT
that's something to work on.

the grand finale

family


-pharmacy guild ball 08-

the last sem started today
and the first day was greeted with hail on the way to school
we're back to the grind with an 8 week intensive killer semester
it sounds heaps hard from the course info session we had this morn
and the final exam dates are still not out
please please please be on the 2nd week of nov
i so badly wanna go home

***********************

my next interview for an internship next year:

Wednesday 17th September 5:45pm

Trott Park Pharmacy

20 Heysen Drive, Trott Park, SA 5158


Ephesians 3:20
Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us.

I cling to Your promise.
Why should i fear?

i miss home
and the people who love me back there

:(

i really miss home
i really really miss home....

and so Jolvin crashed our pharmacy ball towards the end of it last night (as always)
and the first question he asked me was:

"how come i take u to my dent ball last year, then u never bring me to your pharmacy ball?"

LOL

loser la you Jolvin.
Next one i ask you la k.
whenever that is..

well, i would have taken you if i hadn't made a deal with my friends
that it was gonna be an all friend night.

sorry la huh.

but it was good to see him there somehow.
for ONCE he didn't call me fat.
LOL

funny how we used to be so so so close once,
and just somehow miles apart a year later.
hm.

the work never ceases

so the exam's over
i ate
laughed
shopped
tried pretty dresses
got freaked out by the real life models/mannequins on the mall
yakked on the phone for hours

AND I TOTALLY FORGOT I NEED TO COMPLETE MY PLACEMENT BOOK TO BE HANDED IN!!!!!


SHALEENI JAYAMANI!!!!!!


by the way i tried this with sarah and deb.. but in blue..
and i ABSOLUTELY love it..


if only i could manage a JOB this year!!
sniff!!





tmrw will be spent taking my little jolene to the show.
its the last day tmrw, its gonna be so so so crowded.

and then later in the night, its time to flaunt that figure at
The Guild Pharmacy Ball 2008

dear HICT-ians..

just to clear the air...

MY SISTER DID NOT CHOOSE THE LIBRARY FOR YOUR CONVOCATION

as upset as you are...

IT WAS NOT HER IDEA OR SUGGESTION

she's merely following instructions

and she's trying to make the best out of it

coolies??

:)

love us coz we're tough

What are the symptoms of PMS?

PMS often includes both physical and emotional symptoms. Common symptoms are:

• acne
• breast swelling and tenderness
• feeling tired
• having trouble sleeping
• upset stomach, constipation or diarrhoea, bloating
• headache or backache
• appetite changes or food cravings
• joint or muscle pain
• trouble concentrating or remembering
• tension, irritability, mood swings, or crying spells
• anxiety or depression

i've had EVERYTHING in the last 24 hours
and i'm still alive!!
women are such champions
:P

a whole new world

How are you doing Aaron Tan Wei Min?
Are u comfortable?
Is there enough room for your long skinny legs in the plane?
Are your ears horribly blocked?
Do you have a nice friendly person sitting next to you?
What did they feed you with?
Are u full?
Can you sleep?
Or are you wide awake like how i always am in the horrible night flight?
Does aunty Winnie and Uncle Arthur miss you already?
SO many questions!!!!
the internet had to die on me on your very last night.
thank God i woke up early enough to wish u off.
settle down quick so you can tell me everything.
coz i miss you already.




*********************

the most amusing conversation of the day so far:

shaleen:
eh babe... next sem we doing men's health la
i geli la

sarah:
haha mine next year only

shaleen:
no la...
i keep thinking of the boys last sem with womens health
and they so control macho
like wei jin and all
dun like also have to see

sarah:
ya la
but mens health nothing much what
not like women's
its all about their that thing only wat..

shaleen:
...............
that's my point la dei.......
it's all about that only!
cheik!


LOL
i'm NOT looking fwd to a WHOLE module of men's health!!!
i shy!!
*blush*


***************

the most hilarious comment of the day:

"eh anyone got laser pointer ar...
need for presentation..."


daniel leong jeng hsiung:

i got torch light can ar..??

"..................."

bad influence

(a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation.

(b) Tag FIVE other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.
1. The age you'll be on your next Birthday
loving it!

2. A place you'll like to travel to.


3. Your favorite place.
to die for......


4. Your favorite food.
5. Your favorite pet.
exotic.
6. Your favorite color combination.
serene
7. Your favorite piece of clothing.
8. All time favorite song.


9. Your favorite TV show
10. First name of your significant other/crush.

maybe not crush or other, but significant.
11. The town in which you live

love it :)
12. Your screen/nickname.

13. Your first job.14. Your dream job.
some day.
5. A bad habit I have.
16. Your worst fear.
gross.
17. The one thing you'd like to do before you die.


18. The first thing you'll buy if you get 1 million dollars.


Tagging: .... noone

Kildea Chemist, Kangaroo Island

interview date: 27th september 2008
time: 9.30 am


*****
Heavenly Father, why do i always have to be the one to forgive..
i hear You so clearly. so many times today.
but its just so hard to do...

but if that's what You want me to do, i will obey.

and i carry this song with me today as a reminder of YOUR ways,
not the ways of the world

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

andrew's tag.... brrrr...

well, before i nap
spend 5 minutes doing this first la for good ol mr chan
time started: 5.30pm

1. A picture of you in the most unique environment:

2. A picture of you at somewhere you dislike:

i'm scared of heights


3. A picture of someone that means a lot to you:



4. A picture of you with your best smile (mouth open):


5. A picture of you with your best smile (mouth close)
you'll never see me smile with my mouth close.. unless i have no choice...

6. A picture of your lamest pose:


7. A picture of someone that stands on top of you heart

8. A picture of you with some toys or cute stuff:

2 secs before i swallowed it for dinner
9. A picture of you in a white shirt:
10. A few candid pictures of you and your friends:
one enough la...


11. A picture of the person who tagged you"
HAHAHAH




time completed: 6.08pm

what on earth.
wasting my time!

one down, one to go

the day started nasty
had a tummy ache in the morning
Megan stormed out of the house without even looking at me

but it just got better in no time :)

here are the highlights of my day:

1. bumped into chee on the way to uni!

2. met koko wei jin for the first time since he came back.
the circle of friends is complete again.

3. the exam was not as bad as i thought it would be.
i found myself going "thank you Jesus" after each question
yes i did leave a couple of questions blank due to the negative marking.
but all in all, it was alright.
best part of the exam was this question:

Describe the differences of cash flow and profit/loss and why it is important to understand the differences when running a business. (7 marks)

andrew chan is gonna faint when he reads this.

told u i'm psychic ;p

4. Had a fabulous lunch at a korean restaurant with the whole pharmacy gang
best meal i've had in a month.

5. Went to the physio clinic with wei jin, and then head down to the gym.
we're both in bad shape again, but we're working on it.
10km on the bike and a 2km run was all i could convince myself to do.

6. got myself a new book from the 2nd hand bookstore for 2 bucks
looks like an emo book
but i was attracted to the white and yellow cover
haha
it better be decently good

7. planned a lunch outing with lucas on friday
looking fwd to it :)

8. the weather was BEAUTIFUL
clear blue skies..
beautiful yellow rays from the sun..
cool wind blowing across my face..
i walked home in my shorts
1st time in the last 2.5 months since i came back to adelaide.

9. Shel greated me with so much energy the moment i step into the house..
was a little reluctant to come home initially..
but it all chaged when i say her being all excited!
why?
she secured her mazda 2.
and its coming in october!!!

10. found out that my IELTS test costs 280 aud!
instead of 380 aud!
yay!!
i was looking at the wrong category. woopsie.


awesome day
time for a nap
then its back to the books for friday's paper


*muacks*

negative marking!!
here we come!!!!!


4 days to do till this exam ends.

thank you

no friendship is perfect.
but i dare say this one is close to perfect.

i love you

prayer on my lips

ASSUREDLY YOURS

All that I am is in You
All that I seek is to follow You
I run to Your side when You call
There is the hope I am longing for

Just to be by your side
There is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom I’ve found

Take my life
And all that I have to give
Take my world
Just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams
Make me assuredly Yours

3 months from today

i can't help feeling excited!

for once i want time to fly.

siew ghee the nerd boy is trying to teach me how to win a man's heart
please please please don't try this at home

Siew Ghee says (2:12 PM):
what if you try to seduce him
:P

shaleen says (2:12 PM):
like how ghee

Siew Ghee says (2:12 PM):
i dont know, flip your hair or something

shaleen says (2:13 PM):
*laughs to death*

Siew Ghee says (2:13 PM):
or pick something up when he's watching

shaleen says (2:13 PM):
what the

Siew Ghee says (2:13 PM):
bend over

shaleen says (2:13 PM):
and?

shaleen says (2:13 PM):
my assets are not that seducing la huh

Siew Ghee says (2:13 PM):
haha

shaleen says (2:13 PM):
stupid la you
LOL

Siew Ghee says (2:14 PM):
cool, turn on the webcam
and be in your sexiest outfit

shaleen says (2:14 PM):
no webcam, just msn, like this

Siew Ghee says (2:15 PM):
haha
send him the photos!

shaleen says (2:15 PM):
define sexy
i'll check my wardrobe if i have anything

Siew Ghee says (2:16 PM):
try, nothing
haha
and i can't believe you're considering my idea

LOL
miss this donkey to bits!
his stupidity is beyond this world!

i spent one hour in bed after i woke up this morn
just to savour and enjoy the overwhelming feeling of being loved.
its like i got this revelation of how blessed i am to have been brought up in a loving family.
and to have so many friends who genuinely love me and form my support sytem.

i wish i never go through phases where i doubt my value.
or my significance to the people around me.
i must admit sometimes i do.

its days like this where i'm reminded,
and am convinced,
that love is all around me,
and i don't have to do anything to earn or buy it,
coz its all for me.
and it just puts a bigger smile on my face.

such a beautiful feeling,
my heart skips with joy.
so come now,
take my hand and skip with me :)

"Guess who's back.. back again.hehe"

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i was so thrilled to see that to the extent that i did not feel dejected when Megan called to inform me that Nationals sent me a letter to reject my application for next year's internship.

My interview with Kildea Pharmacy in Kangaroo Island

is on the 26th September 2008

and i'm looking forward to it.

i've always been keen on this option, so lets hope things go well!

oestrogens are bigger drama queens than i am.
SERIOUS.
and all the girls nod in agreement.


The lyrics below just resembles a lil promise to a loved one
and you know who you are.
if u don't....... no comment.
rmbr this song?
well maybe not every word of the song is applicable,
but most of it is.
so this is for YOU.

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

So if youre mad, get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When youre standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
Youre feeling all alone
You wont be on your own

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you

Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

i will. promise. no more running. smack me if i do.

today i got fooled again.

this always happens to me.

do i look that generous????


i'm upset.

excuse my bluntness for today

if you claim and swear that its true,
then why are u so afraid for now that ur getting what u apparently "want"?