just thought i'd share a passage which really caused so much faith to rise in my spirit today

John 14, where Jesus is talking to his disciples, and promises them the Holy Spirit when he leaves.

26But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.

27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.


so many things uncertain, out of reach, unforeseen,
yet my heart rests with such peace and joy,
all because the Holy Spirit lives in me,
and enables me to believe that the counselor is walking alongside with me.

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Ridzuan and his wife are gonna have a baby in 9 months.
He surely is moving on at a steady pace.
One look at him and noone would guess i once existed in the story of his life.
They're having a baby, no kidding.
How beautiful is that.
He must be so so so so happy, i know it.
A tiny part of me silently wishes i could celebrate and rejoice with them.

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thought i'd insert my "timetable" over the next couple of weeks, just to keep u updated on my whacko september schedule..

1-5 september : last week of placement = heaps of work to finish up
5 september : we get our study materials for elective 401's final exam
9 September : elective 400 final paper
12 September: elective 401 final paper
13 September: pharmacy ball
14 September: last day of the royal adelaide show! i'm sooo going to get my hair extensions again ;P
15 September: AP 401 begins = torture
20 September:1st aid course, which clashes with the big hunt
21 September:1st aid course which clashes with my 12km run!!!! SOB!!!!!!!!

looks like i can't run :(
you can't have everything, Shaleeni

how funny is my mum really

introducing... my mum

shaleen says (6:35 PM):
eh the swimming thing how ar
no news one
pass anot
kamini sure fail one hahaha

inimak7@yahoo.com says (6:35 PM):
you pas with high marks

shaleen says (6:35 PM):
OOOOOOOo
how high!!!!!!
BWAHAHAHAHA
smart lerrrr
:P

inimak7@yahoo.com says (6:35 PM):
kamini also same la, dont look down on her

shaleen says (6:35 PM):
LOL
hahahaha
kidding la
duhh

inimak7@yahoo.com says (6:35 PM):
80 something

shaleen says (6:36 PM):
shiet we same mark ar where can

inimak7@yahoo.com says (6:36 PM):
same mother ma..

shaleen: ..................

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shaleen says (6:38 PM):
byeee
ttyl
ttyl = talk to you later
learn
:P

inimak7@yahoo.com says (6:38 PM):
i know la

shaleen says (6:38 PM):
OOOOOOOOOOOOO

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who can believe my mum's 50 this year
she's got a brain as young as mine
haha

here's poh's deja vu pic with every exam

thought i'd steal it from her blog coz it clearly explains what the next 2 weeks are gonna be like for me

and for the first time, merdeka day is the last thing on my mind
sad, but true

let the academic torture begin!


on a very lame and random note.. deja vu actually rhymes with megan vu
megan has a sibling named deja?

ok LAME

bullseye from cupid

hmmmmmmmm........

how sweet is the fragrance of blooming love??

*wriggles eyebrows*

i'm SOOOO excited!!!!!

: D

did u miss me while i was away?

i'm back!
and better than ever!
bring it on baybeh.


You heal with one touch.
Too good to be true?
i boldly testify that that is so true.
God DOES heal.
You just need to quit being stubborn and let Him in.

i feel liberated and free.


*winks*

a new week

another week at the hospital
i know its gonna be great

:)

a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down?
maybe once. or twice.

but this time the bitter aftertaste lingers.

For now i find rest upon my hopes,
as i continue to sip on the bitter "truth"

God is in control.
He is.
Believe.

despite the crippling curiosity,
the fear or extreme possibilities,
the sense of loneliness hidden within,
and the risk of losing treasured relationships,
the questions to which no answer can satisfy,

i will lift my arms and dance with the joy of the Lord tonight,
for my life is for no other but You.

Jesus help me,
i can't swallow this on my own.
Let your strength and might shine tonight O Lord,
for when i am weak, You show Yourself strong through me.


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ps Ashley reminded us that we don't have to fight our battles alone,
and that we shouldn't just keep everything inside and think that we should solve it single handedly.
and i'm gonna stop doing that,
coz i'm not alone :)

thank you to everyone who has seen through me and been genuinely concerned.
i love you.

but no worries, i'm all good although i'm struggling with a few issues at the moment.
:)

Jesus help me.
I can't carry this on my own.

The CHINESE love RICE.

So do the AUSTRALIANS.

Stephanie Rice, that is.

dedicated to ern chee

nah, take your pick:


option 1:josiah ng


option 2: andrew lauterstein

LOL
this is so hilarious i can barely stop laughing to myself

HOHOHO

zip up

why do humans NEED/WANT/HAVE/LOVE to gossip so much?

is it really that important to harp on about minor flaws someone else has?

or about someone's insignificant little stumbles?

what do you gain when you gossip?

popularity?

brownie points?

makes you sound superior/better/greater over the person you're gossiping about?

does it give u satisfaction after talking someone down?

or do you "win" when u make someone think badly or have a yucky impression about someone else?

why?

what's the point?

is it worth hurting someone else's feelings for your sole entertainment?

i can never understand this.

never have, and definitely never will.

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seriously peeps, lets try to look at the good in people more than the bad.

because most of the time, you'll find so much more good than the one speck of bad.

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matthew 12:34 says, "for from the abudance of the heart, the mouth speaks."

how true is that?

so how not to speak words of death?

allow God to come in and purify our hearts.

out of that, clean hands will come naturally, and words of life, and not death,
will flow from our mouths.

how simple was that?

Psalm 51:19, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.”

:)

i wanna get my heart right with God.

i don't wanna struggle with addiction to the art of gossiping.

i'm amused just looking at my web counter on the bottom right of the page

i've had 5555 visitors!

who reads my blog really??

and its 5555 different people, or at least diff pc's that are used to view this site

amazing how many people there are in this world huh

and that 5555 ppl would have stumbled upon this uncool blog at some point in their life

a good laugh

stressed out like me?

do what sher mayne does,

come come, cuci mata:

8-)

sorry to the many viewers who are not comfortable with the sight of a half naked swimmer.

i see until basi d, so yea..

LOL

look at andrew lauterstein's body man.........
fuuuuyyyyoooooooooooo
not too thin
not overly muscular
proportionate to his head
officially my favourite among all

i need an olympic swimmer husband
then those rock hard abs will be all mine

*wriggles eyebrows*

crisis

my house got broken into

my cats are traumatized

mum gets a new laptop

there goes my wedding jewelery

less pocket money for me??
lol

day 1 at the queen elizabeth hospital

i love hospital pharmacy so much,
but how bad can community be?

i love lenny and hahn,
they're such lovely people to spend one month at placement with.

i love the dress code for work,
simple: no breasts, no belly, no butt.

i love being a lady,
but today i wished i had done a hysterectomy.

i love not blogging every inch of my thoughts out,
but just to give u a glimpse of what's going on inside.
hence i have no apologies for having a relatively boring blog.
coz this blog was never meant to entertain.

sleep deprived

when your hands are trembling so bad
that you have trouble doing the fine decorative details on a cake,

you know you need more sleep

burden

feelings can't just be swept under the carpet





ps: something we haven't seen for a while:

1 Australian dollar = 2.9256715 Malaysian ringgits

satisfied

i'm so happy with the top two finalist for the american sytcyd
altho i wish twitch won
but yea, joshua's a pretty good outcome too

happy!!

stink bomb

after cooking hundreds and hundreds of roti canai
you tend to smell like one

give me one more right now and i'll just cry

but well, it was good fun
i love serving for my Jesus

:)

more roti canai tmrw!!!

SOB

done

i've finally completed my final assignment for this undergrad degree
yippee!!

seriously, i rather have exams than do assignments.
although its always easier to get marks through assignments.
shoot me, somebody.

its gonna be a busy weekend up ahead.

today will be a day of full on shopping for heaps of groceries and bday prezzies!!
tonight i'll be flipping (and eating) 800 roti canais at mamak night
tmrw will be another "mamak-ish" event with my classmates at my house
sunday will be spent with God and Marabelle for her bday :D

oh boy i need to find some time to slot in my training sessions.
i've only trained once this week!

and someone please remind me to work on my PR application and a couple more internship applications.
everything's hanging mid-air at the moment

and then starting monday, my adventure at the begins!!
tQEH, here i come!
(again)

time to shop!
and as usual.. clean my house :p
*muackers*

kitty cat (s)

fluffy just delivered 3 baby kittens

so now the cat toll in my house is:

2 adults ( fluffy and patches )
2 teenagers ( hemisphere and tyrande jr)
3 new born kittens

so the number of cats have remains at 7 after tyrande left us
and after giving away skunky and bling.

and my new hermit crab will be sharing my lovely room soon
:)

stress!

have u ever found yourself in a situation where u've spent so many days on ur assignment,
yet you've actually never really started??

I SO WANT TO TO FINISH IT TODAY!!!!

hopefully before dinner,
so that i can go for choir in peace tonight.

i know i tend to not admit to how upset i am or tell it to your face
when you hurt me with ur actions

it just means i understand why you did what you did
despite how selfish your decisions were

so please,
at least consider what i've put up with so discretely without you even realising before u conclude that i'm a total FAKE.

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we're bound to be disappointed constantly thru this journey of life.
its ok to cry over it for a while because undeniably, it does hurt.
but yea cry, then let it go.

coz most of the time,
people never really meant to hurt you.
most of the time they didn't even realise you were hurting.


life is beautiful.
don't let tiny disappointments rob you of your sight towards the beauty of life and the people in it.

plus, the last thing God wants for us is a life of hatred and bitterness.
look to God and God's love will teach you to love and forgive too.
you'll be amazed that when you do so, its not that hard to forgive after all.
:)

goodnight world.

today my heart aches.

God, give me your strength and teach me your forgiveness to go on.

Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

the randomness and unpredictability of interviews

1. always check the weather report of the day of your interview before you agree to it.
2. expect to meet your "favourite" people there.
3. don't be alarmed that you might not get the chance to take off your coat
to flaunt your gorgeous new top.

BU state women's conference

a week before BU, the work beganwe girls got the easy jobs.
we helped make and paint massive doors
and wrapped huge panels of wood with beautiful textiles

while the men did the hard work of securing them on stage

one week later,
the stage looks magnificent.
i LOVE being part of the production team.
it gets my arty side excited.

and we sure had a great time at BU!!

i've always been a girl who's been made fun of,
teased,
laughed at,
insulted,
especially by boys,
because i am physically huge,
unlike most other girls who are petite and just lovely to look at.


after BU i felt loved,
respected,
honoured,
appreciated.
the love God's family shows me takes
away all memories of the past where i have
been hurt by insults and jokes hurled at me
merely because of my size and occasional lack of feminism

and as long as i realise how much God loves me,
and how beautiful i am to him,
no insensitive insult thrown at me will ever hurt me again.

how good is that??
;)


MY INTERVIEW WITH NATIONAL PHARMACIES IS TMRW!!
and i'll be wearing my hard earned new blouse
(which took me 2.5hrs to hunt for and buy on rundle)
nice?
i like it!! :)
i'm so excited for tmrw!!
i shall try not to do or say anything stupid!!
:D

meow?

memories sometimes hurt as much as the real thing

i miss my little baby :(

aging

on a less happy note,
i'm getting a rustier by the day.

today:
i sprained my ankle again. just by walking.
my gums above the crowns started bleeding out of the blue 2.5 hrs through this morning's 9 am lecture.
my wrist is hurting more and more.

maybe i should get some physio help.
heard theres a physio clinic at uni.

will check it out soon before i bust anymore joints.

my surrogate family

all the ladies...

and the one lucky boy..



well, lady luck sure wasn't on his side..
you cannot be among 9 gorgeous women without any make up of ur own hottie


now its picture perrrrfffeeeccccttt


hungry jacks anyone?
family portrait




i love u guys :)
and i miss wei jin and maarish!
am looking fwd to september where we'll ALL be together again!!
*hugs and kisses*

dear certain men in my life,

thank you for treating us women with love and respect.

we truly appreciate your genuine effort and care.

:)