shaleeni the ref

so i'm taking the grade 3 course to become a swimming technical official
spent half my day at the pool today
so good to watch the kids training
makes me realise that i've been out of school and off my athletic days for 5 years already
i must say i miss it heaps tho..

sob

oh well, at least i'm on my way to become an official now..
at least i'm still involved in the sports world in some way

oh a random note

i've got a new swimsuit :)

men??????!!!! urgh!!

MEN ARE SO MUCH MORE VAIN THAN WOMEN!!!
while they snap macho pics of themselves..

look at sampath..seriously...
with all sorts of funky light effects all..

even jon looks decent k


and look at the only pic they take of me!!!!??
how unglam...
its so obvious i'm struggling to pronounce my words thanks to my missing front teeth

sob
i need new friends

i think i'm in love..


oh no.

last day

tmrw's the last day of fun in coll
things are gonna be pretty diff and lonely starting monday
oh well, people move on.
and we need to support them.

netball tonight was awesome.
k we didn't play as well as we used to..
but it was just great to be among my teammates again.
we connect so well man all though we haven't seen each other in ages.

my BM has merosot to a level of ultimate disgrace
gosh
i need to do something about this!!
before i totally lose it.

shopping list

jeans. check.
shoes. check.
undies. check.

hmmmm..
that's all i've bought????????
i am so in deep trouble!!!

i still need to buy:
long sleeve tops for winter
kettle for my house
my keyboard
medicines
my skin care stuff
food/spices
earings for megan
and some stuff "ordered" by other friends


and i still need to:
get a haircut
see the dermatologist
go for 2 more sessions of dental treatment
meet up with tonnnesss of ppl!!


all in 3 weeks!!
shaleen has got to get her lazy butt moving!!

i really thank God we're friends
:)

thanks for being my anchor, even at times, like an older brother to me.

i just feel like praying

dear God,
my teeth hurt.
and its making me grumpy.
and its affecting the people around me.
i pray that i'll constantly look to you and not fret over the little pain.
coz i know u understand, and care.
amen.

smile shaleen.
it hurts for now, but its gonna be ok

be strong k?
:)

warm and fuzzy feeling

i spent some time with jon and kwan at college today
and we got to catch up a lil and talk bout new and old stuff
it made me really really happy
its really that easy to please me
just spend a lil time with me
that's all i need :)

and i finished filing up all the messed up documents at work too
well done shaleeni

i feel so nice
just really really nice and warm on the inside
:)

it almost feels like i'm in love

its ridzuan's bday tmrw
hmm
to wish or not to wish
definitely the question of the night.

and it's wee li's too!
that one i definitely will and want to wish

okays.. i need a shower, and then its time for the books!

*bites nails*

my dental appointment had been moved a week forward!!!
which means.......
i'll be doing my dental thingy on wed!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOoo

journey to the past

5 hours with jinn, joanna, juli ivy and fitri today was so fun
:)
it's been almost 5 years since i last saw ivy, juli and fitri..
sadly zel wasn't with us.

jinn and i tried this really nice dress today
and i want it so bad!!
its 110 buckss :(
sob
no, i'm not allowed to spend on any nonsense for now
but i so like it!!! so so much!!!

oh well,we can't have everything, can we?

sob

just got back from another game of tennis with my sister
i notice that every single other person i play with will screw up my strokes
all except my sis
how cool is that??
:)
guess being sisters makes us sorta have the same kinda strokes??
i dunno
but it sure was fun

should play more tennis while i'm home
it makes me feel young again.

time so shower and start studying
enough of playing around for the past 2 weeks
lives are gonna be in my hands
time to be serious and embrace my future responsibilities!!

*muackers*

:/

okay... okay...
i feel guilty already
gosh, the emotions people u love put you through
sob



i'll try harder tmrw
promise

urgh!!!
oops.
*giggles*

annoyed

shaleeni is very upset and disappointed with somebody right now.
but she can't tell anyone or send out any vibes which may show how upset she is.
since she can't and doesn't wanna complain or grumble about that somebody to somebody else,
why not blog? :)
perhaps she needs a blog which nobody reads.
just something(literally) to rant to.
at least that way, its still sorta kept to myself.
as though i never grumbled at all!!!

argh, jayamani's daughter,
she needs to quit lying to herself.

maybe she's being oversensitive.
maybe she's expecting a lil too much.
maybe she's in her own little world.
maybe she's just being plain selfish!
whatever it is, its killing her inside.
and she has to deal with it,
before it eats not only thru her heart,
but thru that somebody's heart too.

ARRRRGGGHHH!!!
how can you be soooooooooooooo URGH!!!!!
soooo gerrrraammmm!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just don't get it!!
i don't think i'll EVER understand what's going thru your head!
i try, again and again,
yet at times i just DON'T GET IT!
like NOW!

NO, I'M NOT PMS-ing
its just one of those days where i feel like whining.