you know how most ppl hate it when people say that they're spoilt?


well i proudly declare that
I AM SPOILT.

MY PARENTS GIVE ME
EVERYTHING

EVERYTHING THEY OWN AND HAVE
EVERYTHING goes to straight to me.

i constantly wonder what did i do to deserve so much.

to say that i'm grateful is an understatement.

i love my parents beyond words can say.

and i can't wait to just give it all back to them.

and i'll truly honour them all the days of my life.

headaches. headaches. headaches.

meet my new best friend and faithful companion,
mr paracetamol.

who needs mr andrew chan when i can have up to 4 encounters with my new buddy daily.

:P

but will u still sing me songs, mr chan?

coz unfortunately, mr paracetamol can't exactly sing..


*******


i got a comment today saying that i've changed heaps over the last year
lets see


march 2007

october 2008

WHERE GOT LAAAAAAAAA

but oh look at the gorgeous flow of the fringe in last year's pic thanks to lex from hair room
NOONE can cut my fringe except lex
look the the cacat unflattering fringe now
sigh
i want a nice hair cut
i've never had a nice hair cut ever since lex "disappeared"

how long can u hold back tears?

never as long as u plan to.

but i know i'm not the only one crying.

We all are.

i miss u Nest.

oops

i think i've hurt someone
even after trying not to
and trying to conceal my thoughts
i can't act innocent anymore
and the silence is killing me
i'm sorry

how are girls meant to work like normal human beings
when the pain is so bad that u can barely stand upright.

here's the answer shaleeni jayamani
swallow ur NSAIDs and stop whining like a woos.

you've got lots to do,
and feeling sorry for urself in bed under the sheets all day is not getting you anywhere.

easier said than done,
but well,
just gotta do it.

right my fellow ladies?

yet another day of extreme emotions

Trott Park Pharmacy
Internship Opportunity 2009
Re-advertised

Please apply via email only by the 31st October 2008.
Students who have been interviewed need not reapply.

**********

ok so what's this supposed to mean?

i'll just take it as i din get the job la after the many hours of wiping her shelves.

Heavenly father, i feel so confused.

I've sacrificed so much time, energy and money in this.

I don't understand why all this is happening.

But i know You know better,

so i'm trusting You and just gonna keep pushing on.

its a harsh world out there.

Just gotta keep trying.

The last thing i'm gonna do is allow myself to be discouraged.

***********
as of today,
my ielts paper is booked in on the 5th and 6th of december.

another whole load of "bucks" gone down that track

**********



this song rips my heart to pieces

reminds me that its about time i made my stand,
draw my line,
and say my goodbye too

Hallelujah

All praises and Glory to God.

i cleared yet another stage of this nasty degree.

I really hope not many people failed this time.

when the heart speaks..

today is such a day of extremes

extreme hyperness at school

extreme lethargy after school

extreme decision making, leading to an impulsive haircut

extreme energy at rehearsal for the launch of friday night church tmrw

and now its extreme loneliness

everything around me feels so quiet and still

i miss belle.
5 weeks to the end of my exams also means 5 weeks till we say goodbye.

Ernest is leaving too for Brisbane is 3 days.
I sure am not looking forward to stepping into the airport.

and Lucas is gonna leave to Sydney as well in January.
There goes my Adelaide Handyman who is always on my back,
tending to my every need.

How true is it that we constantly find ourselves running back to the Creator when we realise things really are not in our hands.

Things change.
Rapidly,
Constantly.

I don't know what the future holds,
my job,
my future career,
my personal dreams,
my relationships.

Everything so vague and unclear.

But the more misty the path gets,
the more i will trust in God.
Coz He's holding my hand,
guiding me every step of the way.
Even in times where emotions tell me that i'm lonely,
conviction and revelation reminds me that i'm never alone.
How good is that to live with hope?
Amen?

omg! its for real!

i CANNOT believe the decision i made today.
Shaleeni,
you are
NUTS
INSANE
BANANAs
OUT OF YOUR MIND
OUTRAGEOUS
RIDICULOUS
INSENSIBLE
and
JUST PLAIN CRAZY!!

oh boy oh boy oh boy
i'm so nervous

Lucas Lee,
i'm depending on you!
WE CANNOT AFFORD TO MESS UP!
or i'm so dead.
like SOOOOO dead.

All the way down to trott park again tmrw
after last weeks boo boo,
i feel a lil embarassed to step into the pharmacy.

These whole 2 years in Adelaide God has really challenged me to practice more humility.
struggle with it at times,
but i've learnt so much,
the journey has been amazing.

tmrw is gonna be such a crazy overworked day
God sustain me,
i know its not gonna be easy

i'm so tired now.
2 more hours girl.
just 2 more hours for the day.
pressing on!

***********

i'm so tempted to ask my dad so send me like extra allowance...

because:

1 Australian dollar = 2.43915191 Malaysian ringgits

argh!
I WANT TO CRY!

Applied Pharmacotherapeutics 401 Final Exam
18th Nov 2008

why can't it be any earlier??!!!

SOBBBBB

oh well, i guess its not that bad la.
i should be grateful.

so i felt a little sicky last night
sorta a mild version of malaise perhaps?
lol so drama.

and the next thing you know,
i'm sleeping like a dead log from 12 am to 12 pm.
there goes half my day.
and i have mountains to do.

goodbye world.
i'm gonna be very antisocial for a bit.

anyway here's the schedule for the week.
nothing extra, just heaps of studying.

test tmrw.
3 hours at trott park on wednesday.
LG on wednesday where abel and i will be working on our performance on the 18th.
choir on thursday.
Launch of Friday night church on Friday.
not sure about the weekend, probably be spent practising for the 18th.

i think i have a test next week as well. i better go look it up.

I NEED TO START STUDYING FOR MY FINALS.

i love daylight savings because its still bright at 6.30 pm
and its not too dark and dangerous to go out for my daily jog even if i get home late

i don't like daylight savings coz i'm 2.5 hours away from home
by the time daddy gets home from work..
i'm already tucking myself into bed

:(


4 weeks to finals!
NOT FUNNYY

but oh boy! i can't wait for this 4 weeks to be over!
there's a HUGE light at the end of this tunnel!!

:P

happy birthday mummy dear

you're the coolest,
hottest,
fittest,
smartest,
funniest,
lamest,
and the most fabulous mum ever.


:D

today i messed up

i won't be surprised if they don't hire me

i'm such a disaster!!!

one last tryout for u to prove yourself, shaleeni jayamani

hahaha.

oh well, i was trying my best.

and so i'm walking down hutt street to school
and as i stop for the red light,
this guy catches up with me, stares at me and goes

"You stupid B*tch, i'm gonna rape you"

. . . . . . .

i am fine
thank God for long legs and brains and a dun mess with me look on my face

but i must admit,
i am a little scared to be walking on my own for now.

wooooooooooohooooooooooo!!

1 Australian dollar = 2.66035726 Malaysian ringgits

i can live with losing anything.

But i cannot live without you Jesus.

You're the one constant thing in my life.

You give my life amazing purpose and direction beyond my own dreams.

Life means nothing without You in it.

happy bday to iyad :)
you're a gem from maldives :)

i'm glad we're good friends :)


*****

ps: real friends don't lie to each other.
so if your thinking of being untruthful to someone you really care about,
please give it a second thought.
You're bound to hurt someone.

lets be courteous and kind in our relationships with others, shall we?

:)

oh boy its october!!!!!
where did the year go to??


placement with Aram at the Trott Park Pharmacy was pretty fun.
Despite the fact that i was a disaster most of the time,
and the fact that the locals were not used to this "Asian" girl with the funny accent,
which made me repeat myself almost every time i said something..

i'm looking forward to friday,
and Saturday too
:)

i was stranded in the city for almost 1 hr doing nothing today coz i missed every single bus i was trying to catch to get back to hutt street.
missed the connector..
then tried to run off to catch the city loop which is not of much use as it doesn't get me significantly close to home.
and yes i missed that too..
in the end i decided to hang around in coles while waiting for the next connector and do what i do best:
grocery shopping!
*heart*
well i got bored after 10 mins coz i din need to buy much,
and nothing interesting was on specials.
spent 30 mins in coles, and then headed down to catch the connector.

met this chinese uncle who conveniently started a conversation with me in mandarin.
hm, so yea talk talk talk...
then it came to a point where he used this HUGE jargon..
and i was like errrrrrrrrrrr.....
and then he blurts out " you malaysian right??"
......
seriously uncle.. we're in adelaide..
speak english la to begin with if u can speak english!
but he was impressed with my apparently fluent mandarin though.
boy, was he easy to impress :P